Poem for Narween

You know...it's strange. Narween was a made up character. She was a fictional person I created to be the odd weekend a month, to be crew with other members of LARP.

But when she died, I felt almost the same loss I felt when my nan died. It took me a good few minutes to stop crying when I left the battle and I had to really bite my lip when telling people she'd gone. Tom's reaction when I left the battle field, telling him Narween was dead...I'm sorry... made it harder for me yet to accept her death and at the muster circle, I'd gained enough control of myself to sit there and listen to what people had to say, but when the God King (the man in charge) told everyone to shout the names of those who had been killd in combat, and everyone in the GTC said Narween and the commander of the Navy reacted in shock, I dissolved and struggled yet another 10 minutes to pull myself together.
At home, the boards were read by Tom and I, and on reading that Narween had had a ship dedicated to her (Othem to be her captain) I couldn't hold back the tears.

On coming back to work, I visited Tom's blog and started to read the narrative he put down for the battle. Everything was going well until I came to the world 'Then I found Narween's body'......god...I just fell to pieces. Had to leave my desk for a few minutes to pull myself together.

Several months have passed since the Gathering and I suddenly came across a poem I'd written when I read those words above. I re-read the words and was overwhelmed with emotion. For a fictional character.

I'm going to be a complete mess at the winter Feast and watching Tom's 'Othem' in mourning over her loss. My new character is meant to be fairly chipper....but it's not going to be easy to begin with.

Anyway...here's the poem I wrote. It's not terrific but it's the closest I've come to writing something whilst feeling fairly raw emotion, so I thought it'd be a bit wrong to work on it. It's what I felt at that moment (btw Mune and Stavlan are two character who died before me in a similar yet slightly smaller battle):

I start the day anew,
I open up the box,
My eyes enjoy the narrative down,
And I see those terrible words
Then I found Narween’s body

…..

It strikes a cord,
I feel myself go dumb
At first it was just a factual thing
But now it’s set in stone

A part of me has died
An area deep within me
I still hear Othem’s angst
As his one true love is dead

Tears, they fall
From pallid features
I hear the music as it plays on
A tribute to the fallen
As at winter they will mourn

Good bye Mune
Good bye Stavlan
Good bye Narween too
You served us with all your strengths.
You will be missed
You were always loved
But now at last your end has come

Greet those you meet up there in Heaven
And prepare them for our entrance
For all those who currently live down there below
will join you
In that ever lasting kingdom