Roll on weekend!

I’m starting to realise, I am in desperate need of a holiday. I’ve reached a stage where even though work is fine, the reception area is cleaner than it has been for a long time, I’m on top of my work load and my to do list has reduced from 20 items (half of which were priorities) to 5, not to mention I THINK my 3 bosses are happy with me (my line manager seems to be anyway and if she’s happy, that must mean they are too as she lets me know when the opposite is true), and I haven’t had too many crappy phone calls from annoying people, but I still feel like I’ve got the worry of the world on my shoulders.
I feel doubtful about things and I’ve started dreading going into work though I’ve no reason to. I hadn’t really realised this until my line manager rang up from the London Book Fair earlier this weekend to talk to my colleague, paused when talking to me and asked if I was ok. When I told her, yes I was ok, she said ‘I just ask as you sound a little stressed out’, something I hadn’t realised, until she mentioned it. I then told her the phones had been going none stop all day and she moved on. However, I have noticed that I’ve been more on the ball and nervy since my two extra bosses have arrived. There’s a surprise.
I really need to get away for at least a week (Larp in my view doesn’t count as a holiday as most the time you’re worrying for your life lol. Of course it’s lots of fun but it’s not a holiday). A proper holiday on a plane, somewhere hot and sunny where I can sit by a pool or a beach. A holiday where I’m forced not to think.
I need to do some research into this…As soon as I have something sorted, I can start relaxing knowing I have a getaway.

On another topic, I’ve entered stage two of my magazine. Finally pulled my finger out and contacted dad about pulling together a design for the front cover. I’ve got all the contributions, I’ve got the ideas, I know what I’m going to do when I have the design etc, but I just needed a front cover. So hopefully when we’ve pulled a few ideas together, I can go to a printer and get the prototype done. Then the distribution and interest gaining can begin.

I’ve just realised why I’m feeling just that little bit crabby today though I (thought) have no reason to:

Last night barely got a wink of sleep due to nose being completely blocked up. I went to sleep knowing I couldn’t breathe (had foolishly left my nasal spray *and life saver these days* at work). I’ve had a bit of a cold for a while these days and I’m starting to wonder if it’s actually very mild hay fever kicking in as we’re surrounded by trees and it’s not the usual congested head, my face it about to explode feeling.
Anyway so last night, although I slept, it was rather fitful as I wasn’t getting a good air supply, and was constantly aware of this. I’m now feeling drowsy and a bit meh.
However, having realised this, I’m now able to pull my act together and feel a little better.
I hate feeling crap without a reason.
I’m also happy because I saved myself about an hours worth of trouble today by completing something yesterday. If I hadn’t coded up some forms which I use today, then I would have wasted so much time. I can now use that time to do something my line manager asked me to do, without panicking. Marvellous!

On yet another topic: I’d like to state a hearty congratulations to Tom’s sister, Becky on her engagement to boyfriend James! Look forward to seeing you for a personal congrats!